Monday, October 10, 2011

TURN OFF YOUR BRIGHTS!

This is the thought that ran through my mind as the car following me obnoxiously blinded me with their brights.  We are driving on a major freeway after all with lamps providing light.  It's not like we're on a two lane country road with no sign of life. I turned my mirror up so that the reflection was not so piercing.
I am even more annoyed that the car had the audacity to take the same exit I did!  And then to proceed to stay behind me to get in the same turn lane.  All the while intruding my driving vision with those blasted brights.  To top it off, the driver turned at the light and stayed behind me.  Of all the routes to be taken in a major city! My annoyance alarms were definitely sounding.  This inconsiderate driver was clearly out to get me.

Then I had a heart check. Ok, maybe a little paranoid. I talked myself "down" a bit~ the driver is simply wanting to get to and fro and happens to be on my route.  Maybe there's a good reason for the brights to be on although I cannot for the life of me think of what that may be.  Perhaps he or she doesn't realize the serious driving transgression that the brights are turned on.

My anger level over the bright light driver skyrocketed out of proportion.  I had to think to myself, why am I so frustrated?  What or who in my life is bringing up the same feelings~ helplessness, inconvenienced, intentionally making things harder?  Emotions are a mirror in to the heart.

I'm asking God for answers since He's the One who truly understands me.  I am not sure of all the reasons for my heightened frustration level. I am trusting He will shine His bright lights on my heart so that I can grasp how my  freedom in Christ is being threatened.  I'm so grateful that God is out to get me with His bright lights.